Have you ever wondered...

Have you ever wondered why everything around you becomes complicated? I can fall asleep happy and everything around me will be perfect and great. The moment I wake up everything has changed.

I lose love, friends and everything due to other human influences. I somehow feel as though I have been manipulated and destroyed. I am a very passionate person and I know I don't always make the wrong choices though I'd like for things to run smoothly for once. I wish I could be appreciated being myself.

I don't really know what to think anymore. I try to stay positive and people bring me down. I become sad and people just don't care. I wonder what i'm doing wrong? I'm trying to better myself right now. I cant control everything around me yet I still suffer the consequences.

As much as I love life. I don't understand why people can't just be happy for me. People say they care about me and i'm important to them. Maybe its all just deception?